continue my life got wat meaning??

昨天回来了这个我不想回来的地方。。

一路上我都很想哭。。

到房间了。。

打给了爸爸。。。

我哭了。。。

没睡好。。。

回来了这边精神很紧张。。。

压力。。。伤心。。。要笑脸面对人。。

真的很辛苦。。。

今天我只打了一通电话给他。。。

等了这么久。。只为了讲15分钟的电话。。

但是这样我已经很满足了。。

刚刚赶完assignment。。

明天又有考试。。

压力真的很大。。

我要崩溃了。。。

很多事情不是我想象的那样。。。

不敢有期望。。希望。。期待。。。

累了。。

希望也像弟弟的朋友那样。。。

一场车祸什么烦恼都没有了。。。

如果是那样。。。

至少可以让大家陪陪我几天。。

大家聚在一起。。。

多好。。。。

因为很多事情到了失去了才会后悔才会想珍惜。。。

我的离开。。。

会是怎样的呢？？

好想解脱。。

mummy，带我走好吗？？

等你好久了。。。

我需要你。。。。
刚刚发现。。。
今天不知不觉地又过了。。
无意发现。。。
今天不知道叹了多少气。。。
以前深呼吸叹气是因为。。
笑得太开心为了冷静。。
过了半年。。
什么都变了。。

suffer...sad

he reli love me??
reli can trust??
i scare to trust now...
he say he break wif she ler...izit??
i dunno....
he do so many is reli love me??
or just playplay??
so many quention mark at my mind...
if he wan drop me pls drop...
dun like tis playplay...
reli hurt me...
i use my true heart to he...
then he oso??????
wan find me then find me...
dunwan find then one day can no any mgs...
i dunno he doing wat....
izit wif her again??
if reli like tat....
i wan put down all now ler....
i wait so long ler...
if answer still like tis...
i no choose ler...
tat is becoz i no use.....
suan ler...........

hope everything will be fine...

tis few day reli happen many thing...

reli tired...

yseterday nite cannt sleep well...

soli to everyone...

dad...thx...reli...

soli....

i noe i hury everyone ler...

is my wrong....

i reli dunno now i can do wat...

yesterday jiejie say to me de...

i reli care n hurt...

i no heart do tat de...

tat thing is past ler...

n not my wrong...

y wan say me like tat...

who noe me??

haiz...

i hate tat ppl hurt my family...

everything happen like tis not me wan de...

haiz...

i reli fan.............

felt helpless...

yesterday go eat steamboat wif limin them ler....

but hor....

i no mood eat....

i doing wat all my mind is he....

happen tis thing ler we reli can continue mah??

who will let us continue....

dar,if u c tis post...

i wan u c tis carefully...

i hate tat ppl hurt my family...

i noe u care ppl do wat to me...

but tat is past thing ler...

i felt tat is nvr mind ler...

i just wan a simple life...

i wan a happy family...

i just everyone happy...

i dun mind who hurt me...

i just wan everyone happy is enough....

u noe tat??can understand...

u say to me yesterday nite....

u n she finish ler...break ler...

i dunno is true??

or wat....

i dunno wat is u thinking about...

i just wan u have a normal life...

dun be gangster again...

i dun mind u will go australia or wat...

if we got yuan fen then we can together again...

thx for yesterday u answer all i wan ask u de thing...

i dun care about u say de...

if i are how we can together 2 yr+...

haiz....

i love u...

but i oso love my family...

if u wan love me...then pls love my family too...

haiz...

y wan happen so many thing then u just wan answer me tis thing...

u say u treat me so worse before is wan me giv up...

u say y i till now haven giv up...

becoz...

i noe u...

u is no bad de ppl...

when i noe u till now is ur fren effect u...

i wan u be a useful ppl...

tat day...

u n me suddenly say the same thing....

our love....is other ppl cannt understand de....

i noe i explain to who oso no use...

they just will think me is silly...........

but till now...

happen too many thing ler...

i need time to think carefully.........

izit we reli can together..suitable or not...........

haiz...........

reli so fan...........

who understand me...

who noe my hurt............

i dunno how to maintain peaceful.........i hate tat....

i hate i need to maintain all thing.........

n do nth.........

i noe jiejie now so hate me.....

but i cannt do wat.........

tired....busy...no feeling...

tired....

tis sem is too rush...

assignment assignment till i wan crazy...

today becoz assignment dunno the warnling suddenly y ler...

show temper to me...

always like tis...

mood no good always show temper to me...

ask she y oso dunwan said...

i no ask anything no mean i didn have temper...

i just dunwan make thing become serius onli...

if noe me de ppl then noe me so less show my temper de...

haiz...

kick me out the group assignment...then kick lo...

i do individual...

not me dunwan go meeting de...

i reli no feeling well....

haiz....

kns ppl...

treat ull so good then treat me like tis...

like no true fren at college life de...

tomoro can go b ler...

haha...

5 ppl can meet ler...

nme n he de thing is reli finish ler??

i try to forget he but he still said something to confuse me...

tired ler...wan me how....

tired to do good ppl...

tis 3 week...

i reli happy mah??

i noe....

i no happy....

haiz.........

tired.....

felt crying....

but i dunno from when...

i forget crying is wat ler....

happy is wat....